Friends??

(As I write this blog I am thinking of someone who I would have loved to have a friendship with and could have learned so much from, had no bad feelings toward this person and actually thought she was pretty and extra nice but sometimes people look at you in a completely different way without even getting to know you)

How many people can you say TRULY have your back? As I think of where my life has started when it comes to those in my life and where I am today, I would have to say I have had a lot of very instrumental people that have played a huge part of my life. Now the ones that have been the most instrumental I would call my BFF’s but as I start to embrace this whole “reality of life” and not the reality of “my world” I have come across one frightening thought. Everyone wants something from you, one way or another or they think you are trying to take something from them( taking something is usually not the case). Now the things that may be needed from you don’t always have to be physical things. It could be unconditional friendship, selfless acts, the dependability factor and the list goes on. And in return you are the same way.

When I think about my female friends I think of my core. My core is my ride or die girls. We have been in fights for each other, lied for each other, been there for each other even when something stupid was done and never judged one another. But this type of friendship took time and it is always greatly appreciated, but we sometimes wonder why is it so hard to bring others into our circle.

When I think about the females we get introduced to as we get older it’s a whole different arena. Friendships take forever, if ever to develop because for some reason females have this katty ass shield around them that doesn’t allow them to accept one another (that is unless they don’t see you as a threat). You look at another female and start to size them up. “O, she thinks she bad.” “Who does she think she is” WTH!!! Honestly can we all just get along? I admit I use to be like that but then I realized I have no reason to be jealous of anyone because honestly I can do what they do and better if I choose. Not only that you NEVER know what a person goes through during their day to day life. I lost the opportunity to have some really great people in my life because of insecurities and I thought their life was so much better when honestly we needed each other to bounce back the trails and tribulations of this thing called life. Whether some of the people in my life could have been friends or acquaintances I could have learned soooo much from them and they could have learned from me.

But until then when someone has their nosed snarled up at me and says smart comments like you think you bad I will respond….” No, but obviously you do since that’s the first things that comes to your mind when you see me. I’m just a women trying to make the best of life and learn and enjoy all I can while I am here on Earth with or without your liking of me

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