Circle of life

        

     Just 12 days into the New Year and I am emotionally drained. Now, the circle of life waits for no one, but yet continues for everyone. I remember having a talk with my father and he told me that the only thing that is promised in life is death. For a long time this was something that went in one ear and out the other until recent times. I watch the news and see people constantly dying, getting killed, etc but yet until it reaches close to home its “Just life”. BUT when it finally hits the home front it’s like a slap in the face with a thick sheet of ice.

       When it’s not your family and a really close friend loses their family it hurts just as bad. I have had this keen ability to kind of enclose myself in this fantasy world where everything is all peaches and cream and nothing goes wrong, but now more than ever I find myself having to face and accept reality. As I think of what to say to my loved ones I go through the process of, what I should do, what I should say, are my words and actions really good enough. Though in

the past few situations I can’t say I know what you’re going through and this helped me…. I think to myself is that

really what they want to hear, man, would that be what I would want to hear . I see my friends and I really want to be able to help, console, talk, ease their pain but yet I’m trying my hardest to hold back tears because I can feel and see THEIR pain, THEIR grief. In the end all I can say is whatever you need let me know. If they know or not I will pray that they receive comfort, understanding, and strength through their difficult time. As I pray for them and their family I think of the song, The battle is not Yours….I shed more tears singing “ There is no sadness Jesus can’t feel and there is no sorrow that he can heal. For all things work according to the master holy will. No matter what, you’re going through remember God is only using you.

For the battle is not yours it’s the Lords.”

        The circle of life is a crazy thing. Unfortunately no one knows when their time is coming. I say please appreciate the people that are in your life as I try to do the same. When God decides to bring you home your job here on earth is done and all that will be left and really appreciated are the good memories that your loved ones have of you. And when your friends and family loses a loved one all you can really do is be there. Reality is we will all be on both ends during this lifetime so make the best of it as the ones that have gone on has.

To Gary Lyon (R.I.P 1/9/12) I remember being at your wedding, and seeing how happy Barb was and how she always had great things to say about you. Talking to you, you were always so positive. Now God needs you at his table. This is not goodbye but a see you later. We will all soon be at that table.

To Peter (R.I.P 1/8/12) though I do not know you personally Ruth has had nothing but great things to say about you. Even though I never had to opportunity to meet you this year you will be missed dearly.