The stalking/love affair rekindled.

So after a very uneventful weekend I realized that the love of my life during competition prep has reentered into my life. THE FOOD NETWORK!!! Now some of you may think that I am torturing myself but I see it differently. I look at all these different meals being prepared and think man, I can do that and make it a cleaner version. There are so many things you can do and add to chicken that it is freaking great, the ideas just start flowing BUT I have to wait 12 more weeks.

Not only do you get ideas you also see how people can get fat. I cringe at the thought of adding 2 cups of mayo to anything but them MY inner fat girl realizes nice fluffy, buttery dips are great, but the fit girl inside me says man I sure do hate that dang on muffin top. The battles begins!

As my fat girl stalks the Neelys with their pound of bacon recipes my fit girl says change the channel and wait for the cleaner shows to come on but I find myself stalking them. I watch them during the day, at night I look them up on my foodnetwork app on my phone WTH! has the craziness started already? Anyways my desire to do well far outweighs my inner fat girl trying to leave me because I am depriving her of all the things I really don't need for a short period of time. I don't need to eat two whoppers in one sitting, one every 2 weeks is good enough . Broccoli and chicken isn't that bad anymore once you start figuring out what herbs and spices to use.

So as I sit here and think about how small my posing suit is and how my 12 weeks pics/trying on my old suit wasn't very rewarding I eat my veggies with garlic powder and chicken happily.

O'Yeah! Second weigh in tonight, wish me luck so I don't get killed!! ;)